Was it a dream ??!!



She had only seen him, loved him but didn’t really  know that he was a rich boy , from a rich family
A neat, rich bungalow with a green lawn and trees all around is what she saw at first. The small little green corners with benches and fruit bearing trees indeed brought out the beauty of the garden, the gardener not knowing her, still smiled and spoke politely. It’s a dream, and as a dreamer you can be in many places at the same time, see what you want to see, talk with whom you want to talk to
Through the riches of the house and the beauty of the garden , all she wanted is to see love in his eyes for her.
While she climbed the staircase, some how it felt that his bedroom was upstairs, she saw him. The smiling face now looked gloomy and sad. They exchanged a smile and that’s about it !. She could see the pain in his eyes, still coping with the ditch of his ex. Nor was he surprised nor happy to see her around. Everyone has an ex or had an ex, and some carry regrets , so just thank that it never really happened. This was a case of pain without any gain.
Somewhere deep within her she heard a voice, don’t you know his ex was richer. Just looking around at the riches of the man she loves , she kept  wondering, gosh ! how richer could the ex be . Perhaps a rich chick from a rich family is a thought that ran through her mind.
While this thought was still on, she could now understand why the pain was still there in her lover eyes. The ex was pretty and somehow had the art of convincing or rather seducing a man, a skill that perhaps she never had !  The scene now visible somehow felt like a song , everyone seemed to be dancing and all she could see is that the man she loves just starring at his vivacious ex who was definetly carefree and keep herself busy with things that were important to her. Dancing, having fun, smiling and much more.All he did that night was tried to get her attention so that he could do the jiggle with her. Unfortunately it didn’t happen !
Not once did he notice the heart that truly loved him standing there and watching this entire sequence, not once did he even acknowledge her presence. This left her thinking, what a cruel dream !
She walked away from this instance . The dream made her to climb down the stair case  to the kitchen where she met a smiling face. The smile and voice of a mother. Obviously it had to be his, the resemblance was definitely there. She smiled , was polite and was busy at her work in the kitchen. She inquired about her where about, family , religion and of course her age. Not once did she inquire, how did you manage to enter the house nor she felt any emotions that she was not  really wanted there as she believe a different god. This lady was polite. The mother spoke about the expectation she had for her son and dreams of his marriage.This moment was the longest and felt deepest, cause from there came a realization.
A realization weather she was  at the right place , would she create pain to this family and was it best that she left without anyone noticing. She did just that, one last time she looked into her lovers eye and said good bye in silence…………..
She never felt his love and perhaps would never see it but it felt  right to move away so that it gave him  the time to heal and perhaps find the person that he wanted to be for the rest of his life. She would never know if it was she….

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